To Love a Werewolf by Antipodean Opaleye
Summary: Nymphadora Tonks is deeply in love with Remus Lupin. But he refuses to accept her, causing her tormet deep within her heart and soul. Will he ever like her more than as a friend?
Categories: Poetry, Remus/Tonks Characters: None
Warnings: None
Challenges:
Series: None
Chapters: 3 Completed: Yes Word count: 1576 Read: 7423 Published: 08/27/05 Updated: 03/31/06

1. To Love a Werewolf by Antipodean Opaleye

2. Remus' Plea by Antipodean Opaleye

3. At Last by Antipodean Opaleye

To Love a Werewolf by Antipodean Opaleye
Disclaimer: The amazing JK Rowling owns all Harry Potter related things. I just wrote the poem.




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Have you noticed?
Have you noticed
the way my heart jumps for joy
when you look at me?
Have you noticed the suppressed smile
that lights up my mind?

Well, I have noticed you.

You barely speak to me.
I don’t dare
to try and make you.
I’m not that stupid.

Is it that you have too many others
to care for?
You are always there
For everyone
In the darkest times.
Who could not love
the very presence of you?

Yes…
I have been close to you.
When Sirius passed away
Through the veil…
Remember?
But that was long ago
And nothing more than consolation
Momentary closeness
In grief.

Why does everything about you
seem so… good?
Your smell
of coffee
Your only consolation
after the full moon.
Why can’t I help?

Your eyes
deeper, greyer, sadder each day
As are mine.
If only I could look into those clouded depths
and see you.


Have you ever forgotten anyone?
Have you ever turned
The other cheek?
No…
But when I need you most
-right now-
You desert me.

Who would have thought
that three words
Just three simple syllables
Could be so hard to say?

If you let me near your warmth
The warmth of your endless compassion
-but deeper-
Just for a split second
I should be happy
for the rest of my life.

But no.

Could you ever love someone
more than as a friend?
From compassion?

I seem to know nothing about you.
Sure, I know your favourite tune,
favourite dish, favourite book.
But if you opened up
and just for a second
looked into yourself…
Maybe I could see it too.

But no.

I should know
how hopeless it is
to love a werewolf.

You leave tomorrow
I only wish you knew…
Could see…
That someone loves you back.
Remus' Plea by Antipodean Opaleye
Disclaimer: I don't own any Harry Potter related stuff. That's JK Rowling's. I just wrote the poem.

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Please don’t tell me
Please don’t tell me
You love me
Please don’t tell me
You’ll stay by my side
By my side
Forever

-I won’t listen-

I hate myself
Loathe myself
For this
I always will
Don’t make it worse

Who will you be today?
Spiky pink hair
Quirk and fizz
(But it’s still you
My Nymphadora)
Or mousy brown…

Please stop
You’re killing me
And I’m killing myself

Bright flame, bright flame
Please stay burning
Find someone else
To nurture you
Please

I’ll close the door
As the rain pours down
On both of us
I’m sorry
So, so sorry

My flame
My passion
Auror, you have courage,
Use it now
To break away!

Do you love me?
But it will pass, soon enough
Soon enough

Look at me
You deserve better
My cup is half empty
My flame but an ember
I have nothing
But the beast…
He will kill me one day
And you too
Unless
I close the door

-I won’t listen-

Don’t you understand?

I love you

Live you

Love you
At Last by Antipodean Opaleye
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Disclaimer: Again, I don't own anything to do with Harry Potter and I'm not JKR.




~Remus~


I took hurried, haunted steps down the narrow, dimly lit corridor towards the quarters for the Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher. I knew it would be empty, and I had to escape. Rain battered against the windows as if it were trying to force its way in, and the sense of sadness was heightened by the soft sound of sobbing coming from some of the portraits on the walls. The shock and grief vibrating in the air all around threatened to overwhelm me, though I fought to stay calm. This school brought back so many memories, good and bad. But now the bad outweighed the good by far.
Unwillingly my mind recalled what had happened in the hospital wing. So he was… - I forced myself to mentally repeat it “ dead. The man who had been so kind, so understanding… one of the few people who accepted me as a man, not a filthy half-blood. My view of the floor blurred slightly.
No… I must stay strong, support the others, and not give in to grief. He wouldn’t want us to. This time, my will can't fail me.
I tried to think of something else.





~Tonks~


I couldn’t believe it. Wouldn’t. This was not happening.
I ran as the rain poured outside. The deafening echo of my footsteps on the cold stones of Hogwarts castle seemed to haunt me, and I ran faster still. The faint torchlight sent the dark shadows of the suits of armour on either side of me across my path.
I ran up a steep flight of stairs onto the next landing, and kept running, through the door, around the corner…
It had to be a dream. When I woke up in the morning, no one would be dead, and I would not be fatally in love with a bloody stupid man. I pressed my hands to my eyes. I would not… cry…

CRASH

Nice going, Tonks. Cover your eyes while your running, why don’t you.





~Remus~


A startled cry escaped from my lips as I crashed to the ground, the wind knocked out of me from behind. Heart beating fast, I fumbled for my wand. Were there still death eaters in the castle?
But no. It was a young woman, face down on the cold floor beside me. She raised her head shakily, breath choked with stifled sobs. Thin, pale brown hair curtained her small face, and there were shadows under her lifeless eyes, once so vibrant. My heart did not slow.

“Tonks, what the hell are you doing?”

She looked at me wildly.

“Oh! I - I’m sorry.” She paused. “Are you okay?” Her voice shook.

“Are you?” I looked at her anxiously.

“Fine…”

But she looked far from it. I wished I could comfort her, wrap my arms around that thin frame. I wanted to wipe those defiant tears away and stroke her beloved brown hair…

But I didn’t.





~Tonks~


It was Remus; of course it would be Remus. I stared hopelessly at his familiar, normally friendly face, and saw the traces of tears. I wished I could hold him and banish them to the end of the world. New tears formed and poured unhindered down my cheeks. Hurt, sorrow and worry lingered in the faint lines of his face, so often studied and traced with a mental finger that never once felt for real those unforgettable features. A small sigh escaped my lips and hung like vapour in the still air.

His mouth opened. “Er…”

Oh hell, was I still lying like an idiot on the floor? He stood up shakily and awkwardly offered me a hand, looking away. His touch made my heart clench.




~Remus~


Her hand lingered in mine; it felt cold and fragile. Guilt flooded through me, though I thought I had resolved that months ago. But it was still there. She would never forgive me… I felt a jolt of horror. Would she stay like this forever, her eyes lifeless, the joy and quirkiness gone from her appearance? I stared at her. But she was still so beautiful, my Nymphadora, and it was by this that I knew her defiant heart still beat, though faintly.

Then our eyes met.

The lights seemed to dim, and all I saw was her, pale face stained by salt tears. The world spun.
I heard an old man’s soft voice, calm as night.
What is your pain without a reason to endure it? What is grief without consolation?
What are you without her?
A little more love…

I still grasped her hand. A wolf howled in the distance, a cry filled with so much grief and agony. An answering howl sounded. She heard it too, and a small smile entered into her eyes for the first time in eternity.

“Yes…” I whispered, almost imperceptably. Something inside me seemed to open a crack.





~Tonks~


I saw it, as I looked in his eyes. A soft glow emerging from a door just unlocked. I saw a longing. Longing, care, ache, loss, and something else.
Somehow, we were closer. Something bubbled up, dancing, inside me. Hope, and an unbearable joy contrasting with sorrow. Love, reflected in those stunning eyes.
Closer still.
His hand reached up and shakily touched my cheek. It was calloused, but so warm and so gentle. He hesitated, then smiled.
Then our lips met in a soft kiss that resonated through me, like the first note of the first music ever made. His arms were around me, holding me, and I was alone no longer. I felt so safe in this warmth, I nearly cried again, but my smile was heartfelt when it had not been for so, so long.

Silvery light from the waxing moon poured in from the window and cast our blended shadows, together on the ancient stones of Albus Dumbledore’s school.

At last.
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