Gone
Curses flying everywhere
And one he did not see.
He toppled down behind the veil
And all because of me.
If I hadn’t gone to save him,
He’d still be here with me.
I can handle pain,
But not to this degree.
I wish that I could see him
Just for one last time.
But I know that it won’t happen.
My depression starts to climb.
People all around me
They always laugh and smile.
Whereas I’m the total opposite,
“He’ll be better in awhile”.
They think they understand,
Just what I’m going through.
I’m constantly in silence.
My happiness is overdue.
I barely speak anymore.
Many say it’s just a phase.
Everything has no meaning.
Slowly pass the days.
There’s nothing to lose,
But there’s nothing to gain.
I soon became lifeless,
Like always being chain’d.
I can’t fight this pain.
I feel like I’m slipping away.
Ice runs through my veins,
My mind has gone astray.
Sometimes I feel
Like this is just a dream.
I want out of this life.
People always hear me scream.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Making my problems disappear.
You made my life easier somehow.
My world became clear.
You were always there for me.
But now where are you?
When I need you the most.
Tell me what will I do?
My friends can see that I’m unhappy,
That there is something wrong.
But I feel so alone,
Just like I don’t belong.
Now that you’re gone,
My world has grown dark.
There’s no meaning in life.
Death I will soon embark.
I’ve gone through so much,
And at such a young age.
But it’s my only excuse
For being in a rage.
This is my only weakness,
Being so depressed.
But I suppose that
It’s only just a test.
I know I must overcome it.
But I doubt I ever will.
This memory will haunt me
And keep me ever ill.
All of my experiences and memories
They will soon explain.
Emotions don’t exist,
The only one is pain.
My core aches,
And I feel blank.
And for that,
I have you to thank.