Hermione’s Regret
I have watched you from afar
You're everything that I’ve ever wanted
A sight of perfection....not a scar
But you've made me feel unwanted
Each time I glanced your way
I blushed so hard, but then I froze
The minute you cast that evil smirk and said
"Get lost mudblood, don't get too close!"
Your words shoot daggers in my heart
Still throbbing since the very start
I loathe you so much for doing this to me
It's killing me inside, please set me free!
Yet many years have gone by
And you have softened up a bit
Your cold heart is now filled with warmth
Your good side has finally been lit
Nowadays, when we pass by each other
You look at me in a different way
It isn’t pride nor is it anger
But it’s sadness that may linger on to stay
Those days have worried me so much
Sleepless nights I've had
My days seemed somewhat troubled
For I couldn't bear to see you sad
One day, I looked for you to see if you were doing okay
I found you sitting on a rock, staring deeply down the lake
I shouldn't disturb your precious thoughts, so I walked away
Sorrow was what I have seen through your eyes, something I just couldn’t take
Then sometime in late October
The most unexpected had happened
Something so depressing, it just couldn't be said
For Draco Malfoy was officially dead
Your death caused me one heartrending tear
My hopes and dreams have been washed away by a tide
At that moment, I had one immense fear
That you’d never be here at my side
Weeks have lapsed, but up till now, I've still been weeping for you
I wanted to kill myself but it wasn't worth it, too
It was hard for me to accept the fact that you'd be gone in my life forever
My heart, my soul, and my mind just couldn’t stand it any longer
Maybe dying was one of the events you have waited for in life
Because never again would you encounter so much strife
In the heavens above, I’m sure, you will find perpetual peace
To finally put an end to the misery, you surely won’t miss
I haven't figured out why you were so glum before
Even your death is like a mystery that involved unopened doors
Was it your father who did this, who treated you like scum?
Oh, how I wish I could have given you the comfort you’ve yearned so much to come.
I hate myself for not telling you how I truly felt
Probably it was the fear of rejection that would make my heart melt
Now I'll have to move on with my life, my life full of regrets
But my love for you that you could have returned back, I would never ever forget.