A/N: I don't reallt like the title, so if you can come up with anything else while reading, please tell me. thanks. enjoy!

What I Could Have Had

I shouldn’t have remembered.

I was only one at the time.

But I do as if it were yesterday.

I remember seeing three green flashes of light.

At the time I didn’t know what was happening.

Now I know that only two had the wanted effect.

I only remember those three flashes.

Little did I know those flashes would change my life forever.

I could have had a compltetly different life.

A life without the death of loved ones.

A life without people having to sacrifice so much for me.

A life without having fear for my friends, all the time.

A life without being known as the Boy Who Lived,

and for having a scar.

A scar that is a constant reminder to me of the life I could have had.

A life with loved ones, and without a family i hated.

I’ve had to learn to deal with all this, mostly, on my own.

Its not like these are things to completely share with others.

Though I’m sure my friends know what I’ve had to deal with.

How could they not,

they’ve been by my side almost the entire time.

And for that I appreciate everything they have done for me.

I can’t say that if my parents had been alive

I would have been Voldemort-free because I wouldn’t have been.

My parents were part of the Order, and fought against him everyday.

And eventually I would have fought him, too, but not in the same way.

To kill him in any way possible, yes, but not because of the prophecy which haunts me today.

The end of my sixth year of Hogwarts if fast approaching,

as well as the day that determines who shall come to their death:

Voldemort or I.

I learned to live with all these things

that I could have had,

but never got the chance to have,

and never will have.

But in return, I got so much more.

Some good and some absolutely horrible.

A/N: I hope you liked this poem. I thinks its pretty good, so i hope you tell me what you think. Thanks!!!

~Sara