Look into my eyes and drown;
Wonder if it’s black, or the darkest brown.
Of pain you’ll see traces, of warmth you’ll forever search.
Innocent girl; try to take me to salvation in church,
Try to love, try to understand,
But slowly your tries will run through your fingers like sand.
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You say you will never leave, that you will be there, always, forever,
But you’re only a girl; so young, so pure, so clever.
If you’ll stay, you’ll burn.
If you leave, you’ll never to me turn.
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A soul that is barely alive, carries around many secrets,
It will never heal, never live; it’s been through one too many tests.
Please do not try to make it better, when I know it’ll only be worse,
Face the truth now girl; I am destined to live with this curse.
Never be loved, never love,
Never feel, never enter heaven above.
Sad as it may seem to your ears; I chose the path,
I am sill walking; having forgotten the feel of laugh.
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I am left by Hell’s gate,
Left to stand alone, left to the cruelties of fate.
Many times I’ve wondered why,
Many times I’ve wished to die,
But something have stopped me from finding relief in the dark,
The feeling of guilt that burns like the mark;
Once thought as powerful evil,
Now only a reminder of my past as a believer.
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Yes, behind these walls you’ll find nothing but a wounded man,
Not the illusion painted in your mind; someone misunderstood without the glorious tan.
Let go, my dear, let go and open your own eyes;
Please see what is lying so plainly before you; this man who cannot speak the word nice.
See, and know, understand, and turn around,
There are some things you’ll never know; you who are so lovingly bound.
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My years of silently watching death play,
Pain tainting every lasting day,
Has hardened me to the point of almost stone; therefore my heart of ice,
Behind my raven eyes.
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