The Best Kind of Friends
December brought with it a ceaseless freezing gust of wind and a thick blanket of snow that coated the grounds literally overnight. The students went to be one cold night and the next morning there was no green left at all on the grounds. This cold weather also brought several dozen cases of the common cold and the flu amongst all years in the castle. Madam Pomfrey had never been so overworked in her life, even with a Lycanthropic student to take care of, and the students were wagering when she would finally snap and announce her resignation. The students certainly thought she would quit when every Gryffindor seventh year appeared in the infirmary one morning, complaining of headaches, stomachaches, completely stuffed up noses and throat-shattering sneezes.
It seemed a great relief when Professor McGonagall made her rounds around the Great Hall one morning in the middle of the month, taking down the names of the students who would be staying at the castle for the holidays. This meant that Madam Pomfrey was free to relinquish her charges to their parents for a week, at least. She only had to take care of the less than ten students that usually remained behind. Besides, she had to take care of herself now. She had contracted the common cold the day the seventh years all came down with the same illness at once. She believed the students did everything in packs â“ including getting ill. She really was getting too old for her job.
âSo, weâre all staying here for Christmas, right?â James asked as Professor McGonagall took down the names of some Gryffindor second years at the opposite end of the table.
âI am,â Sirius said at once, prodding a piece of burnt bacon with a distasteful look. âIâm not going to spend Christmas by myself in my flat. That just sounds a little pathetic.â
James couldnât agree more. âPete? What about you?â
âStaying here.â
âRemus?â
Remus shifted in his seat, spooning around his porridge before pushing it away, not very hungry anymore. âIâm going to go home.â
âWhat?â his friends asked disbelievingly. âWhy are you going home?â Sirius asked confusedly. They had made a pact ages ago that they would all spend their last Christmas in Hogwarts at Hogwarts.
âIâm just going, forget about it.â
âCome on, thereâs got to be a reason.â
âYeah, well, just drop it, Sirius.â
âChristmas is a full moon, isnât it?â James deduced. He hadnât checked the moon charts for December yet, but what other explanation could there be? There had never been a full moon on Christmas during their years at school; it was bound to happen eventually.
Remus nodded jerkily, saying nothing else about it.
âSo why would you go home? Spend the night here! Weâll make it the best full moon youâve ever had.â
Remus stubbornly shook his head. âI appreciate the offer, but no⊠Iâm just going to go home.â
âWhy?â Sirius persisted.
âYou guys shouldnât have to spend your Christmas night with a werewolf, alright? Thatâs why. So just sign the bloody sheet McGonagall has and let me go home.â
Sirius rolled his eyes. Trust Remus to think they would mind having to run around the Shrieking Shack with him on a full moon. âCome on, Moony, stop being stupid. Do you think we mind spending Christmas night with a werewolf?â
âIâm not going to be much fun on Christmas; Iâll be sick and you guys know what Iâm like when Iâm sick. Itâs a lot better for me to not ruin it for the rest of you.â
âWhat?â James said in a voice filled with mock surprise. âYouâll just be your usual charming self.â
âJust drop it, James,â Remus insisted firmly. Standing up, he plucked his bag up off the bench. Slinging it over his shoulder, he said, âWeâve got classes, guys.â
Muttering mutinously, James, Sirius and Peter collected their belongings and trooped out into the Entrance Hall behind Remus. As they were making their way out, Regulus was doing the same. Three pairs of eyes darted to Sirius, who nodded for them to go on ahead. James, Remus and Peter were reluctant, knowing this confrontation could lead to nothing good, but with another firm nod from Sirius, they hurried on to Charms. Sirius took a deep breath, bracing himself for whatever was going to happen. This was the first time he had confronted Regulus since Diagon Alley.
âRegulus,â Sirius began tonelessly. He didnât want to leave anything in his voice to suggest that he was about to try and reason with his younger brother.
âWhat?â Regulus asked heatedly.
Sirius was taken aback. Regulus was mad with him already and he hadnât even done anything to deserve it yet. âI just wanted to talk.â
âI have class.â Regulus attempted to push his way past Sirius, but Sirius wouldnât have it. He pushed back, forcing Regulus to hear him out. Regulus was seething. The last thing he wanted to do was talk with his older brother. âWhat do you want, Sirius?â
âI told you, I want to talk.â
Regulus narrowed his eyes dubiously. âI know what you want to talk about, so save it for someone who actually cares. You never gave a damn about what I do, so stop pretending you do now.â He pushed his brother out of the way and started for the stairs, only to have Sirius block him again by snatching the collar of his robe. âWhat?â
âYou really donât think I care about what you do?â Sirius was truly hurt by that statement. He did care about what his brother did with his life, he always had. Why else would he be going painfully out of his way to speak to Regulus? He wanted to stop him before he got in over his head and could never come back out. He didnât want his brother getting hurt. No matter how badly they got on, Sirius would never wish harm upon Regulus.
Regulus, however, didnât believe this. âYou forfeited any right to care about anyone in our family the moment you left home.â
Sirius let out a frustrated snarl. When would Regulus ever stop using that as an excuse? âThat was two bloody years ago, Regulus! Get over it! I didnât leave because of you; I left because of our mental parents.â
âDonât talk about them that way.â
âOh, right, I forgot, youâre Mummy and Daddyâs favourite boy. Youâre not âbig bad Siriusâ. Youâre not some delinquent who has a mind of his own. Is that why youâre running around in that mask of yours? Is it to make them prouder of you than they already are or to make me look worse to them than I already do? Why are you running around with that filth?â
Regulusâs eyes widened at an alarming rate and he hurried to silence Sirius. âDonât talk about what you donât know.â
âAnd what is it I donât know, Regulus? Is it that I donât know what a monster youâll turn into if you continue running around with those people? Merlin, Regulus, I just want whatâs best for you!â
âSince when?â
âSince I was old enough to care! Why will you never believe that?â
âBecause of the people you run around with, the way you spoke to Dad the day you left, the horrible things you said to Mum, because you never once apologised for abandoning your family.â
Sirius let out a breath slowly. It always came down to this â“ Regulus always used this as an excuse. When was he going to wake up and realise Sirius would never apologise for doing those things? Sirius wasnât happy living there and if he ever wanted to be happy, he had to leave. Living with the Potters was the best thing he could have done for himself. If Regulus really cared, he would have seen that. Resignedly, he said, âI guess youâll never believe me then. But, just listen to me for a moment, all Iâm asking you for is one moment. Your life will be destroyed if you keep going the way you are. Iâm only telling you this because I donât want you getting hurt. Believe what you want, but thatâs the truth.â
Christmas Day was a dark, dreary sort of day. The beautiful white snow that had coated the outside had now been turned into grey slush that got everywhere the moment someone stepped outside. The rain had not stopped coming down in buckets once since dawn broke and there was thunder rumbling in the distance and faint flashes of lightening, signaling the coming of the storm that had been just out of reach all day. Any hopes that anyone might have had for a white Christmas were dashed before the even smallest of children woke up, wondering if Father Christmas had paid a visit late the night before.
The inside of the Lupin house was almost silent except for the quiet talking of Harry Lupin, who was sitting by the fireplace, conversing with Charles Potter, whose head was sitting in the crackling, green flames. Charles was planning on stopping by the next morning to help heal any wounds Remus would receive from the full moon. Harry was trying to tell him it wasnât necessary, the full moons werenât that bad for his son anymore, but Charles wouldnât hear any of it. Think of it as a Christmas present, was what he said.
âHowâs he feeling?â Charles asked concernedly. Ever since he had seen Harry Lupin in St. Mungoâs after his sonâs bad reaction to one of the alleged cures, when he learned what his sonâs friendâs ailment was, Charles always felt a great amount of concern for the Lupinsâ boy when the full moon drew near.
âHe was sleeping last time I checked,â Harry replied, glancing up at the railings upstairs that blocked most of Remusâs room from view. He had gone upstairs that morning to see if Remus had woken up yet, but he had been sound asleep.
Just as Charles opened his mouth to say something else, there were footsteps coming from behind Harry. He turned to see Remus coming downstairs, his face pale and yawning widely. Harry offered his son a small smile. âHowâre you feeling, Remus?â
âFine,â Remus replied sleepily, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes. Then, glancing at the head in the fire, he added, âHappy Christmas, Mr. Potter.â
Charles smiled. âYou too, Remus.â
âYour motherâs in the kitchen, she has your present waiting for you.â Remus nodded distractedly and disappeared into the kitchen, where Harry heard his wife wishing their son a Happy Christmas. Shaking his head, he turned back to Charles. âHe hasnât gotten out of bed all day; he must be feeling a little better.â
âYou know everyone at the hospital is trying to do something to make this easier for⊠well, for people like Remus.â
âHow many of them are really trying?â Harry asked harshly. His face then reddened and he sighed, shaking his head again. âI donât mean to yell at you, Charles. You care about my son like he was your own. I know youâre doing everything you can. But the others⊠how do I know theyâre not just saying theyâre looking for a cure?â
âI donât blame you for feeling that way. I admit that some of my colleagues arenât as invested in finding a cure as others are.â Charles smiled suddenly. It was a proud smile. âBut I can tell you that soon weâll have someone who truly cares working with us. Once the school year is over.â
Harry knew at once who Charles was speaking of. His face broke into a small grin. âJames decided to become a Healer?â
Charles nodded proudly. His face was absolutely beaming. James had wanted to be an Auror for so long and then announced over the summer that he was planning on becoming a Healer instead. Charles couldnât be prouder of his son if he tried. James was always trying to help others; a Healer was the perfect profession for him. âHe told me right before he started school, when he got his Head Boy badge.â Charles let out a chuckle. âIf youâd seen his face when he saw that badge along with his letter, he must have thought someone was playing a horrible trick on him.â
âYou should have seen the look of horror on Remusâs face when he found out he was a Prefect. I donât think Iâve ever heard him yell so loudly. Anna and I thought someone was hurting him when we heard him shout.â
âJames was pretty terrified as well, though he wouldnât admit it. He thought anyone but him should have gotten it. He was going to post the badge here, thinking it must have been sent to him by mistake.â
âIâm sure James is a fine Head Boy.â
âHe is now that heâs gotten it through his head that it wasnât a mistake.â Charlesâs eyes turned to his right, as if he was listening to someone. His wife must have been asking him to get his head out of the fireplace. âIâll see you tomorrow, Harry.â
âSee you then.â Harry stood up as Charlesâs head disappeared and the emerald green flames returned to their fiery red. He wandered into the kitchen, where he was met with the sight of his wife cooking dinner and his son turning over the new watch his parents had given him in his hands with a rather perplexed look on his face. âYouâre wondering why we gave you another watch?â he surmised.
âYes,â Remus replied, holding up his left wrist, where the watch heâd been given for his seventeenth birthday rested. âI already have one.â
âYes, but you donât know how to tell time on that one,â Mrs. Lupin said as she mixed cake batter around the bowl she was holding.
âI would have figured it out eventually.â
âYes, but I canât have my son going around not knowing what time it is,â Mrs. Lupin went on, setting the bowl down on the counter. She approached her son, took the watch out of his slackened grip, and slid it onto his left wrist, snapping the clasps closed before he could do anything about it and also removing the other timepiece he was wearing and putting it in his hands. âIt was my fatherâs. The only thing he left to me, I want my son to have it.â She said this all with an air of finality and Remus knew better than to protest.
Remus never knew his grandparents on his motherâs side. They werenât thrilled with their daughterâs marriage to Harry and his mother knew they would never approve if they found out her husband and son were wizards and her son was a werewolf. He knew why his mother wanted him to have the watch; it wasnât just because he couldnât tell time with the other one. He managed a smile for his mother and thanked her for the present.
The full moon was vicious that night. The werewolf didnât know if it was this way because it was Christmas night and this would usually be a time when he would be having fun with his friends, free from the wrath of the lunar cycle. He didnât know if this just happened to be a particularly violent full moon that just happened to fall on Christmas night. Whatever the reason was, all the werewolf knew was that this was the worst full moon he had felt in a very, very long time.
And he was all alone.
He knew he should have taken his friends up on their offer to spend the full moon with him in Hogsmeade or even just in the Shrieking Shack, but he was stupid and didnât. He didnât want them to have to waste their night with a werewolf when they could be perfectly happy, testing out their new presents and enjoying the delicious feast in the castle. They didnât need to spend their Christmas night with him, the miserable and violent werewolf. No, it was best he just went home and stayed with his parents for the week. It was best he endure the full moon on his own. He knew his mother and father were sitting awake in the sitting room, waiting anxiously for the moon to set.
The small shed the werewolf had once inhabited during the full moon had long ago been replaced. The werewolf was still small for his age, but big enough that he needed a larger shed to transform in, otherwise the shed would break. The new shed had been put in place when the werewolf had turned fifteen and had the smallest growth spurt known to man. The werewolf had more space to roam around, but he still hated being confined to this tiny space. The werewolf wanted to be running around the Shrieking Shack, the Forbidden Forest (with the exception of the angry centaurs) or prowling the streets of Hogsmeade. But no, because of the werewolfâs own stupidity, he had decided to come home and bypass all that so his friends wouldnât have to run around with him all night.
He was really stupid sometimes.
The only reason that the Animagi were there was for that purpose â“ to help him. The only reason James, Sirius and Peter had trained for three years to become Animagi was so that they could keep their friend company when the full moon rose, so he wouldnât bite and scratch himself like he always did. Without his Animagi friends here now, the werewolf was biting and scratching worse than ever. His howls shattered the otherwise peaceful Christmas night. The storm that had been threatening earlier had long passed over.
This wasnât right, this just wasnât right. It was Christmas! He shouldnât have had to turn into a hairy monster on Christmas. Heâd rather it was his birthday ten times over than Christmas. The closest he had ever come to transforming on Christmas had been when he was twelve, the year Sirius had come over for the holiday. That had been one of his favourite holidays, right up there with last year when all of his friends and their families had come over. True, he, James, Sirius and Peter were stuck with Muggle cleaning duty, but it had been fun. He had had his friends with him; there was nothing more he could ask for.
But this year⊠this year he was on his own. His parents were mere feet away, yes, but they couldnât help him. They had tried for so many years to help him, yet Remus knew they should just give up. They were wasting their money trying to find a cure for him. He knew there would never be a cure. Anything the Healers came up with would do nothing more than make his condition worse. He didnât want his parents searching for a cure anymore, wasting their money on him. It only resulted in a letdown. He knew better than to get his hopes up; he knew the cures wouldnât work, yet he got his hopes up anyway and was always disappointed.
He was tired of being disappointed.
He was tired of hurting his parents. He knew they would never blame him for what happened; his father always blamed himself. His father believed that if he had never written that article about Fenrir Greyback, Remus never would have become a werewolf. That may have been true to some extent, but it wasnât his father who had lured him out of the house fourteen years ago. Remus had led himself out of the house. He knew he was only three years old at the time, but even three year old boys knew that you shouldnât go outside in the middle of the night. But he went outside anyway and here he was almost fifteen years later.
He knew he should count himself lucky. He may be a werewolf, but he had parents who loved him and friends who would do anything for him. There werenât many werewolves who could say they had that. He knew he was lucky for what he had. Most werewolves would never be admitted into Hogwarts and yet he was about to finish his seventh year. He was lucky and he knew it. But that didnât stop him from realising that there would be a time in his life when it all came crashing down around him. He was leaving school; he needed to get a job. No one would ever hire him. His parents wouldnât be around forever.
This wouldnât last forever.
The peaceful night was shattered once again, this time by a sad, lonely howl from a werewolf who was realising that the old cliché would hold true for him ⓠall good things had to come to an end.
âMerlin, he looks awful.â
âLike someone rode their broom over his face.â
âHow would that make him look awful, Wormtail?â
âI dunno⊠the handle could have dragged over his face.â
âYeah, but that still wouldnât be that much damage, maybe just a long red line.â
âShut up, Padfoot.â
âWell, someoneâs touchy.â
âOi, would you two shut up? Heâs probably got a bad enough headache without the two of you making it worse by arguing over what kind of damage a bloody broomstick handle would do.â
Sirius and Peter couldnât stop their mouths from dropping open when James snapped at them. Usually James would jump right in, joke about it with them. James had certainly been changing since the beginning of the year. Sometimes it was for the better, other times, like right now, it made him a bit irritable. The three boys were currently sitting in Remusâs loft bedroom, waiting, rather impatiently, for him to wake up. Charles Potter was fast at work and had Remus sedated on Sleeping Potions, so he could work and Remus wouldnât be aware of any pain he might otherwise experience.
The three boys were sitting by the stairs, giving Mr. Potter plenty of room to work. The night looked like it had been a terrible one and Jamesâs father certainly had his work cut out for him. The boys remembered Remus saying his grandfather used to come and heal him when the full moon had descended, but his grandfather had died years ago, when Remus was only thirteen. Charles took over that position now, whenever Remus was home from school. He felt it was the one thing he could do to make him feel better.
So far, he had bound and bandaged Remusâs right arm, which had been at a funny angle and bleeding horribly. There were multiple bruises and scratches across his face, which inspired the conversation Sirius and Peter had been having before James told them to be quiet. There was some severe bruising around his ribs, forcing Mr. Potter to immobilize Remus so he wouldnât move before they could be healed. Progress was being made, but it would be some time before Remus woke up. The boys were occupying themselves by sorting through Remusâs record collection.
âThese Muggle people give themselves weird names,â James commented, picking up a record with the name Pink Floyd on it and looking at it with mild confusion.
âThatâs not the weirdest one,â Sirius told him seriously, taking the record from James and looking it over, admiring the design on the jacket. âThe old ones he gave me for my birthday had even stranger names.â
They were distracted by a sigh from Jamesâs father. Looking around, they saw he had straightened up and was pocketing his wand. Offering the boys a tired smile, he informed them, âWell, thatâs all I can do for him now.â
âHeâs alright, isnât he?â James asked tentatively.
âHeâll be fine.â Charles offered the boys another small smile before walking around them to get down the stairs. Once Charles had disappeared downstairs, the three boys got up and crowded around their friends bed. As if sensing someoneâs presence, Remusâs eyes slowly began opening. They almost laughed at the look of utter shock on his face when he saw his three friends. His eyes were wide and, if he could have, he probably would have jumped in an attempt to shield himself. He had learned a long time ago that waking up with his friends surrounding him usually meant they had done something.
âWhat are you doing here?â he asked hoarsely.
âWe were just passing through,â Sirius began, casually inspect his nails.
âAnd we thought it would be fun to drop in on our favourite werewolf friend,â James continued in the same fashion.
âSo here we are. Youâre looking well rested, I must say.â
Remus rolled his eyes. âHonestly, what are you lot doing here? You signed McGonagallâs list of students staying at the castle.â
James nodded. âWe did, but then decided there was no way we were letting you wake up without having your friends around.â
âAnd we couldnât miss out on the opportunity to bother you relentlessly,â Sirius added dismissively. Then, in his most somber voice, he went on, âand we want our Christmas presents, now.â
âI left your presents at school. I thought thatâs where youâd be.â
Sirius huffed and looked indignantly at James and Peter. âSo, thatâs how itâs going to be. I guess weâll just keep his presents for ourselves then.â
James nodded wholeheartedly. âYeah, we should. Remus, just ignore that small pile over there by the stairs, itâll be gone in five minutes.â
Remus rolled his eyes again. He knew his friends would never dream of doing that. âSo you three really just came here for why you said you did?â
âHey, we said weâd spend the last Christmas holiday at school together. Certain lunar forces prevented that. But it doesnât mean we canât do that now.â
The four boys often told themselves that they would always be there for one another, that they would do everything together. Now that school was coming to an end, with just a half a year left, they didnât know if that was possible. They had had their realisation mere hours after Professor McGonagall went around taking studentsâ names down. There would be a time in their lives when they wouldnât be able to be there for each other. They couldnât, they wouldnât, let that time be now.
They had to use this time to be the best kind of friends possible.