Oh God why did I do it?
My God it kills me so,
To be here without her,
More than she will know.
I don't think I can take it.
It's too intense, the pain.
And I know I cannot stand,
This endless night and rain.
As I lay me down at night,
The darkness so encroaches.
It scares me from my hollow shell,
The end that fast approaches.
I wish it did not hurt so much.
Oh, I want her by my side.
I wish she knew how scared I am,
That I want to run and hide.
The end is coming closer,
And I don't think I will live.
I hope there's some way that I will,
But for her my life I'd give.
As the storm finally breaks,
And the darkness kills the light,
I wish that I were not alone,
As I enter the final fight.
Please don't mourn me if I die.
My God, I love you so!
I always have and always will.
I just wanted you to know.