Killing Me Softly
The velvet red ink shines a
beautiful scarlet on the parchment page where
my inner secrets are hidden.
I delve deeper, darker,
my soul now splattered on the diary.
The weeks are daunting,
my muchness is ebbing;
long periods of blackness begin to haunt.
He cares, he listens, reigning me in,
knowing my utter frustration.
Strumming my pain, he is
far too understanding.
It seems he is almost
egging me on,
and I can't remember.
Memories fade so quickly,
slide deep into a briny flood.
No longer... No longer...
Fading slowly to February.
It has to end, this power,
this deep mistrust.
Into the toilets, the water
rushing fiercely-
in haste I try to hurl
him away,
try to soothe my guilt.
The months slip by, but
I know that I must be crazy.
I've lost my life at the one place
I had dreamed of
for years.
I have to tell someone,
for this is killing me ever so softly-
total and utter submission
to his cruel and utter control-
yet, I can't...
And now he calls me down,
and now I know he cannot be trusted.
Yet I go against my
weak and flimsy will
into a dark and gloomy chamber,
into a cold and murky chamber.
But the worst
is his apparition
that suddenly comes out of
that wretched diary,
and I cry out in fear
and sob in pain,
and he no longer plays
his little game.
My strength wilts
and my mind begins to blacken.
My soul has fed his
all these months,
and this parasitic growth
Has been killing me
ever so slowly;
ever so softly.
The darkness overtakes me.
I slump to the floor,
seemingly to never awaken...
Killing Me Softly by Nagini Riddle
Story Notes:
Song title borrowed from the song, "Killing Me Softly," by Lauren Hill.
Chapter Endnotes: Do they not make the cutest couple? :P