Before they even reached the library, Laila had turned to James and grabbed his hand. Stopping him in the hallway, she stepped close and spoke. âThanks for helping me out, James. I donât know how often Iâve said that, but I really mean it. I enjoy the time we spend together.â Laila Albright placed her hand on Jamesâs arm. She took a step closer and disregarded the look of slight confusion on Jamesâs face. âHow can I ever thank you?â she continued in a gentle, sultry voice.
Jamesâs breathing got shallower as she got closer. Her hand traveled up his arm and onto his chest. He couldnât speak, but he did realize that this had happened before. He remembered her being so close⊠but, no⊠it was Lily to whom he was close. It was she whom he had kissed in his memories.
Wasnât it?
Except, that Lily had brown hair and brown eyes, just like the girl before him. But he couldnât have possibly kissed this girl before. That would have been unthinkable.
So, where did the memory come from?
âLet me thank youâŠplease?â Her voice continued to lure him, and he didnât move as she stepped forward. Slowly her hand moved up to gently grasp the hair at the bottom of his neck. After she had gained an inch or two by standing on her tiptoes, she gently placed her lips on Jamesâs.
âForget about Lily⊠She canât ever really care about someone like you⊠Sheâs not that type of girl. She spent so long hating you; itâs not that easy to forgive. But Iâm here for you James,â she whispered against his lips before looking up through her eyelashes. âAnd I like you just the way you are, hexes in the hallways and all.â
She lightly kissed him again. âShe doesnât deserve you. Sheâs so plain and ordinary compared to you. You deserve someone whoâll be able to keep up with you.â
As her lips met Jamesâs once more, something connected in the back of Jamesâs mind.
This is wrong⊠Her lips felt different and her body was shaped differently. She didnât fit in his embrace like she was supposed. How had she changed?
Perhaps he could make it feel right. He brought one hand to her hip, and the other spread its fingers into her hair, which was thicker and more textured. He responded gently to the kiss.
Not so gentle was the scream that pierced the air of the hallway.
They broke apart, but Laila did not let go of him. He turned immediately toward the scream, and saw the girl who should be standing in his embrace.
How was she on the other side of the hallway?
He looked down at the girl in his arms, and saw the plain brown hair, brown eyes and unremarkable face of⊠a girl he hardly knew.
He stumbled back, his eyes narrowed in confusion. He turned toward the girl with the red hair he loved so, and saw her head shaking in surprise and hurt. He watched Lily turn away and run down the hall.
âNo. Lily!â he cried as he started towards her.
Laila called to him. âJames! She doesnât care for you! Sheâs just-â
âNo. I love her. Youâve done something to me. What have you done? What have I done?â James continued to stumble backwards, away from the girl.
âYouâve done the right thing.â
Her voice was bordering on shrill, and the same naïveté was present. The falseness of it hurt his mind. How had he never noticed it?
âIâm the only person who can truly understand you. Who doesnât want you to change,â she said, attempting to close the distance.
He shook his head. âI didnât change for her. I changed because it was right. But Iâd do anything for her. She wouldnât lie to me. She wouldnât try to trap meâŠâ
He turned and ran full out in the direction Lily had left.
He passed a girl, who pointed the way.
That girl watched as he ran off, then she turned to face her classmate.
The classmate was scowling, her painted-nail fists clenched.
âYouâre so full of it, you know that?â asked Lauryn, cocking her head to one side as she looked at the other girl.
âWhat?â asked Laila, tersely.
âFull of siren blood, are you? Or is it veela? Perhaps mermaid?â Laurynâs sarcastic tone seemed to anger Laila further, and she was quite happy for the control. âYou just canât resist twisting people around your little finger.â
âHow dare you?â cried Laila, flushing.
âOh, quite easily,â retorted Lauryn. âAnyone whoâd stoop to such a level deserves to be taken down. Itâs pretty low, using your talents to take someone elseâs boyfriend. I pity you. I pity that you have to resort to such cruelty.â She shook her head.
âSimple suggestions arenât cruel,â Laila said, her chin lifted.
âSuggestions? How so?â
Laila looked at her for a moment, and Lauryn assumed she was judging whether or not she was worthy to become privy to a familial secret. âSuggestions that heâs recently kissed his girlfriend, only minor things are different.â
âThings like hair color?â
Laila raised her eyebrow in response, and the other sixth year assumed she was correct.
âItâs still not right.â
âNo!â Laila cried. âWhatâs not right is the way she suddenly became his! So quickly. How did she do it? Perhaps sheâs the one you should be worrying about.â âLily Evans? Bewitch someone?â Lauryn scoffed. âDonât be ridiculous. They fell in love.â
âWhy is it ridiculous to think that she could be capable of something like trapping a man into loving her? Sheâs a smart girl.â Disdain heavily laced with sarcasm dripped from her voice.
Lauryn just shook her head. âYou must not be much of a romantic; otherwise youâd know that their story is quite⊠well, romantic.â
Laila sneered. âRomantic. They have nothing in common; they shouldnât be in love.â
âOpposites attract,â was all Lauryn said.
Laila shifted her weight from one foot to another and rolled her eyes as she also shifted the topic. âYouâre just jealous that I kissed James Potter.â
Lauryn guffawed. âHeh. Heâs not my type. Though that breathtaking loyalty he showed right there at the end definitely does raise him in my estimation.â She looked hard at the girl across from her, suddenly struck with a curiosity of Lailaâs past. âLoyalty. Perhaps thatâs it.â She could hear her voice softening, just a bit. âYou havenât been shown enough loyalty; you donât know what it is to be devoted and loyal. Do you just think itâs a natural thing for people to leave, so you donât bother with the possibility of a lasting relationship? The possibility of unconditional love? I really do pity you.â
Lailaâs jaw clenched, and Lauryn could see the tension that entered her body.
âIâm sorry for you.â
Laila let out a shuddering breath, as if she was going to say something, but instead she turned and stomped off.
Lauryn realized that there was something else behind that girlâs anger and guile, something that had hurt her. Lauryn frowned briefly, dearly hoping she wouldnât hurt anyone else. She was just glad that this affair had been diverted before Laila could get too far into Jamesâs find.
Then, her face lightened and she remembered; she had some tutoring to do.
âLily!â called James, as he stopped at the top of the stairway towards his retreating girlfriend. Lily didnât stop running. James gave a huff of exasperation and went down the stairs three at a time. At the bottom, he continued running, quickly catching up and attempting to stop her progress with his shoulder. The block didnât stop her, unfortunately; she let her own shoulder glance off his, and she made to continue to run. However, James grabbed her shoulders and looked into her face.
She lifted her arm and slapped him.
Hard.
He squeezed his eyes shut in pain, sucking breath in through his teeth. James shook his head to get rid of the pain, and when he opened his eyes he recognized where they were standing. Not letting go of Lily, he led her toward a blank stretch of stone wall. James paced three times in long strides while Lily took her anger out on his shoulder. After the third pass, a door appeared in the wall, and James led Lily inside.
He heard gasp as they stepped into the small room. It was lit as if it was an outdoor courtyard, soft sunshine glancing off light stone walls, covered in ivy. A wooden bench faced a small pond. A bed of tulips ran along a wall, and bush of lilacs sent up their lovely smell. James pulled Lily into the room then turned to face her.
âI donât know-â
âHow could you?â
âI donât know how! I donât even know whatâs been going on!â
âOh, you pathetic hobgoblin. Why donât you run back to your study partner and ask her to help you? Perhaps sheâs better at understanding betrayal than Accio.â
âBetrayal?â The word left his mouth with all the air in his lungs, and he felt his eyes widen.
âDonât try to pull that.â Lily pulled her hand from Jamesâs and turned away.
âPlease, believe me. I didnât know what was going on this whole time. The past week and a halfâ”or however longâ”is a blur to me, when I look back on it. I recognize all these memories that I realize never happened. As soon as I saw you just now in the hallway, it became clear to me that there are incredibly blurry parts of my recent memories.â
âYou still kissed her, Potter!â shot Lily through clenched teeth.
âI donât know what happened there,â James cried desperately. âShe was just suddenly kissing me! And for some reason I thought she was you. Iâm sorry!â
âOh! Is that supposed to make me feel better?â She didnât give him any chance to respond. âAnd you kissed her back! Iâve known the feelingâŠâ Lily swallowed her sob and continued. âIâve felt it enough to know what it looks like.â
âLily, all I know is that I have memories of kissing you, but you looked like her.â
Lily cried out. âKissed her before, have you?â
âNo! No, thatâs not what I meant. I meant you look different in these memories. And, when I try to think of those memories they fall apart. I donât know whatâs happened.â He threw up his hands, so confused and so wanting her to understand him. His heart hurt, and his head spun.
âYou and your excuses!â she cried. âNone of that made sense! And what about everything before that, huh?! All those moments in the common room when you were âtutoringâ?â
âI have been tutoring her! Havenât you seen that!? Youâve always wanted me to care more for school work, and I can only imagine that you would have rather I spent my time helping others than making up pranks!â Jamesâs voice had risen to an angry octave as he looked at Lily; his eyes were full of incomprehension.
âTutoring someone is one thing, Potter!â shouted Lily, turning around and kicking out at a short lilac bush. The petals released their scent as they were assaulted. âAll those covert little looks and those little touches are something quite different!â
âI donât even know what youâre talking about! I remember trying to teach a rather dense girl simple charms and incantations!â
He watched Lily roll her eyes and take out her anger at another lilac bush. His mind was reeling. He still had no explanation for the blurry parts of his memory. He realized that in a different situation, Lilyâs intelligence would probably be very helpful in his trying to unravel the past week. She would be able to point him to entire sections in the library with information on what had happened. Unfortunately, he figured sheâd rather hit him with a Bludgerâs bat than tutor him in the ways of a bewitched mind.
Bewitched.
He froze as they word crossed his mind. Could that be the explanation? Had that Laila girl done something to his mind?
Suddenly, he realized quite clearly that every blurry part of his memory (where once were memories of kissing or spending time with A-Lily-Who-Looked-Like-That-Laila-Girl) was preceded by a clear image of Lailaâs brown eyes boring into his.
His mind attempted to process this in a few seconds. They had to be connectedâŠ
Lily responded to his statement: âYes, and right in the middle of tutoring youâd stare into each otherâs eyes with her hand on your leg! Perhaps those had to do with some incantation for Charms? Or sheâd sit so close to you sheâd practically be in your lap because that is necessary for some spell?â The derision was clear.
âLily, I think those moments are important. I just realized that every blurry memory followed an image of her eyes. Perhaps if you stop overreacting, you can help me-â
âOverreacting?â She uprooted a tulip.
He let his head drop to his chest as he exhaled, knowing that âoverreactingâ was the wrong thing to say.
âOverreacting? Of course I am! How silly of me, not to see that my boyfriend was welcoming these looks that clearly stated that another girl wanted him as her own! I wish I could show all those looks that hurt me so incredibly much!â
Suddenly, a pedestal appeared in the middle of the courtyard. A wide basin sat atop the stand, and James realized that it was a Pensieve. Lily must have thought about wanting to show him something from her thought.
He watched as her eyes narrowed at the Pensieve, and then looked around at the room. James realized that as she had never been inside the Room of Requirement before, she had no idea of its magic.
Before James could start explaining, Lily held up her hand and raised her wand to her temple. For several silent moments, she pulled out strings of thoughts. Finally, she beckoned James over, a fierce look on her pale features. She gestured to the pedestal.
Fearing what he would seeâ”for the idea of betraying her love and trust cut himâ”but knowing that understanding was far from him at the moment, he submerged his head in her thoughts.
He watched as what he assumed was every scene from the past week and a half involving he and Laila played out. Numerous moments of he and Laila staring at each other punctuated the scenes. Those were the moments when she must have planted the false memories, somehow. Harder to bear were the scenes of Remus and Sirius wishing Lily a happy birthday, and Nikeia, Josey and Alice handing her wrapped objects. The realization that he had missed her birthday sliced through his mind and he groaned.
It took several minutes before he withdrew from the Pensieve.
âThat I allowed all that to happen⊠Iâm incredibly sorry, my love. I should have realized something was wrong, I know that. Only, I didnât think anything was wrong.â
âYou call me your love, but how could you have let yourself succumb to that if you truly loved me?â
James reeled backwards. The accusation deepened the cut. He gasped. âMagic and bewitchment work that way: they tend to make the person being bewitched unaware that they are bewitched.â
A ball suddenly appeared in the air in front of Lilyâs face. She grabbed it and flung it at James. James was caught off guard, and the heavy red ball hit his collarbone. He cried out and cursed.
âLily! That hurt! Have you ever considered trying out for Chaser?!â
âPotter!â
âIâm asking you to believe that I havenât been myself, not because I wanted to, but because I had no choice!â
He wished she would believe him. It was almost like the previous years, when nothing he would say would make an impact on her. She had toughened her mind to his requests then, and the same was happening now. He knew that she was hurting; he would be the same if he saw her in the arms of another man.
His voice dropped to a whisper and he stepped closer. She didnât move away, but would not catch his eyes. âIf you can forgive me, for even a moment, perhaps we can figure out what happened to me. There must be an answer to all this.â
She pulled away from his attempt at touching her arm, and started for the door. âThe only answer is that I have to go. I have patrolling to do. Iâll take the lower floors if youâll take the upper.â She opened the heavy wooden door and left the courtyard.
James cried out after her and then cursed loudly. He was angry at her for not understanding, and then angry at himself for assuming she would forgive him for that kiss with another girl so quickly.
He threw back his head and sighed loudly in exasperation. Unexpectedly, and seemingly without source, a deluge of water poured onto his face. He gasped as he whipped his head up and wiped the freezing water out of his eyes. He figured the attack had been Lilyâs last wish as she walked from the room.
He passed a hand through his hair and groaned. He would have to find the answer by himself. Perhaps once he had that, Lily would understand that the very idea of being parted from her made turned his stomach and caused an iron band to ensnare his heart and choke him.
Brushing his hair back once more, he stomped from the room and headed towards the fourth floor.